Gainfully employed!

Well, I seem to write mostly unhappy posts. So, here is a good one! I had a job interview this week and it went really well!!! I'm super excited. It is a lab technician position in the pharmacology and toxicology lab at the U. It isn't super lucrative but it is gainful employment. So, now I'm looking for a new roommate or two and a place to live. Hopefully I'll be starting right after graduation. I'm pretty excited!

On To Happiness.

I realized something profound today. An old friend wrote on my Fb wall and asked how I was doing. As I wrote her back I told her how I was honestly feeling. I said, "Things are good. They are better than I give them credit for being. I am really so blessed and I don't acknowledge that enough." Or something to that effect. I feel that way right now. For the most part I am happy. Yes, I'm ready to find someone to share my life with; yes, I don't want to be alone anymore; but in reality, that is just one aspect of a multi-faceted life. I have so many blessings. I have an incredible family who think so highly of me that I could never possibly live up to their expectations. I have friends who cheer for my victories and who cry with me through my trials. I believe in a God who forgives me for my many, many foolish mistakes. I have the ability and the opportunity to be educated. I am healthy. I have every reason to be happy. I used to always say that happiness is a decision. In the last couple of years I've stopped believing that. I've become jaded and disillusioned. I don't want to be that way anymore. I want to see the beauty in life around me. I want to feel the goodness of life every day. I want to drink it up and live every second. I really want to be the person that I was eighteen months ago. That newly returned missionary who believed in everyone and who knew who she was a where she was going. Let's be honest, I'm going to cry a lot tonight. But in the morning I'm going to choose to be happy and positive. I'm going to choose to believe in people, to love them for who they are and for what I see in them. That's who I want to be. I want to be the girl that builds up everyone she meets, who leaves every situation she encounters better than when she entered. That is my ultimate goal.

Career goals

Well, I'm 24 now. And I feel like it's time to be an adult. It's time for me to figure out what I want to do with my life. I know that I want to get a PhD in pathology and spend my time researching disease. I feel like I'm at point A and I need to get to point D and I'm just not quite sure what points B and C are all about. So, I'm applying for jobs right now. It's a little bit of a scary thing to pick out your future. I want to find a pathological area that I am passionate about. Something that when I read journal articles about I say, "Wow, that is so cool." And I want that interest to last for forty years. I really want to pick the right thing the first time around. So, yeah. That's my biggest focus right now.